To The Best Of My Knowledge

 Good Day, All!

Prologue;

1. Limitations of the human languages with the script (I can't say much about them without script) as they are only approximations and they must be the first science stream humans invented. 

This a tough one and definitely there will be further updates added to the introduction, which anyway shall be understood easily unless the language (I use, or all the human languages in general!) I adapt.

Let me tell you something, it is normally said that If you want to learn more, you better start teaching! Same I found applicable here that by starting to write, I came to know how much I do not know. And as I said earlier, so much had been written and so told or sung or shown I find it very weak to get into this territory and am with a fearful heart. Definitely, the heart is the heart of the matter than the brain, I feel! 

Now the name of this blog was chosen because (I think) after joining sea life all the time I had to sign a statement on my part, it was always included before my signature that the above-said details are true to the best of my knowledge. This made me confused because all that is written is true only and anyway later I realized that from my date of birth to my name to so many other things are made to be believed, then, I know them in the right way. But, later I realized that everything is that way, as the relativity thing caught up with me; or rather I caught up with it. As I said earlier, somewhere, please forget E=MC2 as we have so much energy here and global warming is on!

And the short description is given as "world and me within or me and the world within" is more like fanciful thought like what Alan Parson's Project song "Dream Within a Dream" introduction part. This thought stuck with me from my short-term free lessons given by a true teacher of mine on logical thinking and Hinduism, till he died. My way of relative thinking also helped in this regard but made my life miserable to the core as relativity asks you to be confused all the time and seldom makes you take decisions, maybe only the best part of it. Actually making decisions are not really difficult, but to stay on to make sure unforeseen difficulties are taken care of and retract the full team in case of a defect is unrepairable in the initial decision. I did not get the free Blogspot address as it was taken already and I wanted this to be my name so I had to buy one suggested by the Google domain.

The next one is the titles I use for my posts. Initially, once I started writing I made many drafts, with only titles, which would help me exactly what I wanted to write, as my memory is not very good. Finally, I got a job in my original and only profession and I decided to publish all these titles so that any readers who stumble upon them may get a rough idea about what I may be thinking. As around 20 years back, while working on a ship called MSC Amsterdam, I told my chief engineer that if I blurt out everything I know, all the people may come against me. So I decided not to put any tags at all to lead people here to my site. I got motivated by a Keralite woman's blog and I copied a lot from that site. I got a skeleton from Etzy and as do-it-yourself crazy, I did a few modifications with no previous knowledge, and thanks to a lot many people on the net. Then I found that whatever I write is going to be only a few paragraphs per post and putting short and ambiguous names should not be a good idea. Also mostly I post the title even when I do not have much time or mood to write, it will stay as an onus to complete someday. I was always comfortable with it and hope anyone who reads may not object.

The next issue is my competence level as far as the topics I am dealing with. Basically, I use bits and pieces of information I have read, heard, or viewed, and mostly I can not prove them to be genuine. I can not prove their genuineness by telling where they are written, or reproduced. I actually take everything I come across as a story and check their validity in my life, by logically assessing them. Particularly, History, which I never believe fully and with utmost care use only the skeleton part, and good and bad projected by the historian may not be accepted by me. I never go deep into any particular thing and inversely, I go with all faculties alone, as I feel the earlier method is straying from the objective of life. Forced to live an aimless (apparently) life, life was very challenging, and definitely, others may feel that I am the one who is straying! So please be aware that whatever I am writing is based on simple knowledge/ information specks I have conceived and logically analyzed and projected as some way valid thoughts. Please be very careful when using anything I write. I myself say that no one can be fully right or fully right and the same is applicable to me too. Also, you may note that I am not giving answers, but rather raising posers.

Also, the information I gained over my lifetime (Please do not count the first three years, which I found unusable as said by Sri Sri Ravi Shanker's Art of Living basic course I attended, nearly 30 years back, by reading and all other sorts, I am not sure how much true. Say like in early childhood read somewhere that Science is trying to make a list of things that they do not know, it is actually, about what they have only partial knowledge (yes, to the best of their knowledge they know everything about most, even at that time!). In my secondary exam, I managed nearly 82%, but in my social studies paper containing history and geography, I managed to score 59%. So naturally, here I will have to deal with history, a lot and I am relying on Wikipedia and other sources, and there are definitely other versions too. But then anyway I am not going to, take history with a pinch of salt, rather check its validity before. Anyway, history is nothing but a story about what happened, as suitable to the present, written by someone. So if an argument happens at my home, and if all three of us were asked to write about it, tomorrow, the content of each definitely going to be different. Also, India never got freedom, it only got partitioned, and there was a change of rule from the English and The Kings in India combined. I do not know but always felt that the main target was the Kings than the English. I can not make a proper logical support to that. More like an intuition. And the Kohinoor, the swords of Chhatrapati Shivaji, and all were not looted out of India.

The most important aspect is the datum line or the plane on which I specify that I am standing while making the blog as a whole. I will try to iterate on them, and I can not tell every moment where I am, as I myself may not be aware, and so many things will be contradicting each other. 

They are, Vis,

1. Relativity level with free will

2. All god and No free will/ Budha, Sri Krishna, alchemist

3. Layman, materialistic, pure

4.

Also, I have lived mostly, here in Kerala and the locality where I was born. All my posts are purely based on the outputs of this. I have visited many countries and known their inhabitants superficially. They were better off in many aspects and definitely worked hard on their piece of earth, and they mostly know what is law-abiding, and rule makers were good at their job too, I felt. Rather they are more humane. But I think I know why we are like this and I find my place if put some effort can be better than any other place and the adverse conditions will make me or my son a better human being on the run. People who seek monotony desert this country, and I don't treat them as a brain drain in any way. The basic thing in law enforcement is that there should be more than 99 percent of the people selected should be of high integrity and the ones to select them should be having 101 percent integrity. 

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{language sadguru intellectual/ confidence, self-esteem knowledge base drug abuse, etc

My knowledge base

Nobody can be fully right / fully wrong

Social reformer

Reality a mirage

freedom of being aimless

Philosophy

commercialization of ideas

Man/ woman rivalry, ease of work- manpower no more needed, woman power can do, why?

Ayn Rand man's profession

Or should it be good vs bad

like theism's four ways of good?}

 Good Day, All!

I think I was a bad learner of English or the so-called Indian English was non-precise and almost harmful. If the latter is the case then, I think we dealt with the English people badly, because of the incompetence in their language. And I do not know, if we really hate the English people, why many of us are still studying and earning in their land. And why I myself is not trying to stop this nonsense and make our country better. I can see a lot of jobs to be carried out. But I think, the Chathurvarnya concept had succeeded or rather reached the end of the road, and the system was such that spirituality was prior. And on the long run achievements faded out and people on this land lost their ability to do physical labour, or rather materialistic life. They had a dislike for blue-collar and want to do only white-collar jobs. As it is managing something to me is an inferior way of getting a job done, but here we all want to be managers. 

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When I was saying that I was not trying to amass money, power, and fame {corrected from, against; as later realised} it made me aimless or on a path of being an intellectual, or worse, a social reformer. I prefer to shun away from the word philosopher as it is considered as a bad word here and never read any philosophers and I don't know what that word means. All along the word wisdom was evading me. Off late wisdom, the word used to come across me when people saw my hair going grey, tell me that I have aged. Aged, said in Malayalam, resembles wise and I feel happy to answer that, yes, I have aged! The second occasion was while reading The Alchemist and I always thought at the end of the book, that anyone acquiring a treasure should earn enough wisdom to keep it and Santiago was forced to make a long journey in this regard. I can not say he made it or the treasure. In any case, there is no scale to measure wisdom it seems. Olden day fables have wise men and women and the world I see now have few people heeding to advice little. Most harming obsolescence, from my point of view. And a noticed abundance of intolerance in the part of the world I live. It is not that people apparently from all over the world tried to change this scenario, and all failed it seems, and ran away for their life. I feel they all tried their best in a symbiotic human society! Maybe genetic, racial and other differences inherent, or accumulated caused the task herculean. The development of engineering, in production, transportation and communication should have made things easier; or maybe it is doing the job now assisted by many, including ones from here. By the way, reality from my perspective is quite confusing me considering the period I go to sleep/ go out of the time axis and am brought back naturally or forcibly**. Somewhere before I said the present is not important, but maybe the present is only important and it creates the space for the other two, or rather past works as a basis of all actions.

From my part, I too, have travelled a bit, because of the profession I was forced to choose because of a stupid attitude toward the education system prevalent, or, maybe the profession chose me! Anyway, life was difficult because of my ignorance and luckily I was guided by a lot of good people from all parts of India, working with the National Shipping Company, Shipping Corporation Of India. And it was my maternal and paternal company and my Alma mater. I feel sorry, but it nullified all sorts of education I gained earlier. The only exception may be the eight-month training I got at Vishakhapatnam Shipyard, which gave some theory tips regarding shipping to me, which stands valid even today. I am not saying that most of these institutions or universities were bad in any way, but just that, I was unable to gain from them and try to accept it as my error. So I have travelled to most countries and major exceptions are South America, Germany, North Korea, Scandinavian countries etc. Holy land was Haifa of Israel, a walk on the streets in the early morning of 1997? Never bothered to visit Rome or London. I know only the people who use the street like drivers, pedestrians, shopkeepers etc and found all people nice. Found the Japanese extremely helpful nature and capable at it, but the Chinese in 1992, in the remote area very much incapable of it, not that they really liked it. The most beautiful place was Venice. Felt very sad to see Hodaida, Yemen in 1997 and it was pure coincidence that A ship which I have taken delivery, as Chief Engineer, on behalf of The President Of India from Colombo, went to Yemen to do an evacuation duty at a political upset, in 2014. I was omitted, and I thank God for that, as I was too tired for the operation after a stressful delivery. Another vessel accompanied and after 4 years, I had to do a stressful job on that ship too. A lot of things happened after I joined the sea, and leaving the SCI, after ten years of service caused a lot of changes, particularly after the marriage. Prior to that, I was on a Japanese-built crude oil tanker, and at the mid-sea on the Y2K day. My minimal knowledge of electronics helped me very much to sleep peacefully, but now I realise the seriousness of the issue. At this stage, I feel in a way that an early adherence to Christianity led me to a tough life scenario, but a Bahai-like attitude which I took even before knowing much about Bahaism. I visited the Lotus Temple of Delhi in 1984 but was not knowing much about Bahais at that time. Nor when I set foot at, Haifa, because of a  machinery failure I had to ditch the idea of visiting Jerusalem.

So I feel, wisdom also is a hypothetical word, and terms like wiser and wisest may not be valid. Maybe you reach a plane of wisdom and keep moving. Only that makes the Alchemist distract Santiago from trying to save a clan and at the same time comes back and heeds his words. I feel that Alchemist was a wise man, and I don't know what is philosopher's stone,  elixir, panacea and all!

Also, even now, what is India, as a whole, I do not know, but I am sure it will be good. This is a war-torn land, just because it needs to be. People have lost memory and the ability or patience to memorize. Maybe many people associate only Hinduism with this land and India. India and Indian in English to me are more to Red Indians of Mexican mountains. I am not sure, but Hinduism contains the major chunk of old times Higgs Boson all world together called Chathur Varnya which I feel succeeded, but the war between polytheism and monotheism collapsed everything. Maybe Dravid and Arya came out? God is still evading and may continue to. After all, we need only a proper answer, scientifically proven and we do not have to control, view or know God! Materialistic science is good enough and contrary to what I said earlier, Murphy's Law will keep the system moving more than any law!

**This sleep thing I wanted to take up as many may take it as my imagination. Normally we consider as a state of rest for the mind and body and sciences of all times stipulated some minimum requirements of time of sleep. But I consider myself as a twin left/right helical spring of mind and body as in an internal combustion engine valve and alive and asleep are just winding and unwinding of these springs. It seems to me that the sleep time, actually the winding happens and conscious self may be doing the unwinding. Still looking a bit fancy? I don't know, this sleep thing is quite slippery and may be worse than death. It is with us and still we can not figure it out. By the way I have been talking about God, but I have no idea where the present day science stand. May be it is not fully understood by a single entity. Like a locker with different key combinations?... 

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